Hello Monday; I use to hate Monday’s; now they are just like any other day; in fact all the days just run together now.

When I was younger; before I got sick; I can still remember how each day had some significant’s; when Ruby Tuesday was Gone with the Wind; you had Hump Day; Thursday was like a Monday on Steroids; Friday; TGIF; what else was there to say it, but let the games begin.

The Weekend; now that use to mean something; now its just like any other day; how did this happen?

I have a hard time distinguishing what is getting older and what is just being sick for too long; I don’t look forward to anything any more; depression; yea I’m sure of it; but its more than that; the days are getting shorter; I remember when I was 10; in the summer days felt like years to me now.

When your sick and tired of being sick and tired a Monday is not a Funday. I need something to look forward too; Tuesdays are now Microsoft Patch day,  then you wonder if you Servers will come up after that; what joy; I like Linux a whole lot more.

What day of the week should I look forward too?

Believe it or not; this is my first weblog. I thought about it for years; but never got around to it. I’m a Computer programmer by heart. I’ve worked a lot of Jobs; I was in the Air Force, did a lot of Computer Programming there. The (E)F-111, MH-60 and MH-53 were my Aircraft. I was Retired as Disabled Gulf War Vet. I went on to Program for the EPA then the BLM; then I was
permanently Retired as Disabled. Long haul for me.

I was retired and divorced form my wife of twenty years; don’t miss her at all; but I miss my two daughters; they are both grown up now; they don’t want to see or talk to me for reasons only they know; but my x-bitch from hell had more to do with it; she was a very sick puppy; was molested by her father (who wasn’t her biological father, a DNA test would prove that and that her mother was, lets say the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree in this family) since the day she was born; grow up to make all men’s life a living hell; she lies so much she actually believes it; she is in her own little world of make believe; I just wish she would have left my children out of it.

I’m remarried now; living the life I always wanted to live; just wish I wasn’t so sick that I could enjoy it.

My new wife has two daughters; who treat me better than my own ever did; such is life. We do our best and try to live a good life despite my problems, we all have them, mine is with Gulf War Syndrome.

I’ll try to keep this Weblog going and up to date; its just my RANT; nothing more nothing less.

Jeff Flesher